Welcome Navy! You will find friends here and on the PTSD site as well. When I need to be specific I talk here but you learn the guys can relate too many symptoms. We all have our horror stories. Glad you found us.

Feel free to talk and we will listen.

Prismatic and patriotgirl I just reread your posts and Sally's when i was going through my hard time the ;ast weeks and I want to say again thanks for your sharing and support. Prismatic I too was isolating bad after the exams and Sally I did get back in with my counselor. She has been out for months with surgeries but is back now.She was upset and shocked at what gappened but said she had other women who have had similar experiences with Nazi woman. I mailed a 5 page poem I had writen to one of my perpetrators last week. I hope it disturbed his ole arse. I'm sure the part I had his home address and knew things about his life I'm sure he thought I didn't know after 30 years might have made him uncomfortable. I didn't do it for him but for me. It was like dumping some of the stuff back where it belonged if that makes sense.All the pain ange and shame went back where it belonged.

Hi everyone, I will be on road trip starting June 16 thru the month of July. The female veterans conference in St. Louis is June 26- 29. Mike and I are going to play on the way back home. Hang in there everyone. Sally

Have a great trip Sally! Bring back good info and have a good time playing.

wow I can;t imagine mailing something back to er that certain someone. I'm still afraid he will find out who I m and where I am and find some way to really screw me over again! How do you get over that conviction, when the creep was a superior officer with oodles of credibility? Got any ideas?

Hope you and mike have a great time sally and tell us about the trip when you get back.

How's it going navy?

Well in my case they all knew who I was but it took these 30 years to get the guts to confront them in this way. I am writing a book that I am naming them in so I just wanted to let him know since my case has been founded. I no longer fear what he can do. He is 75 years old and needs to fear me and what the exposure will do to him. I refuse to be scared of my perpetrators any more. This gives them too much power and I take that back but it took lots of therapy. It doesn't mean I no longer have symptoms but I refuse to keep having fear and take back my power every chance I get. This was one way.

wow! what's the title of the book, if you've got one? If not, what's the working title? Sounds like Taking Back Power...

Hi everyone! I am doing last minute things to get ready for the trip. I went through a phase in the healing phase of telling off the man that raped me and nothing to do with all men. Very slowly ,I was able to talk to guys without running away. I was also able to tell my story to the media about the rape. That was like a weight had been lifted off me. What is the name of the book? What about" I am in control!! " Take care! Sally

I love both of your suggestions but I already have a title but can't solicit but I think its on my profile website. Thanks for your encouragement.

You're right.

No solicitations here, just open discussion

Hi I'm a peacetime veteran and never dealt with my stressors in a positive way. High-strung is how I felt and thought it was 'my personality'.
I got into therapy at the local VA community clinic and see a male psychologist who says he has
PTSD himself. I'm super sensitive, but feel that I need a therapist who will cause me to face the
past and stop dissociating my memories. My therapist is not comforting or understanding.
He points out obvious stuff and it hurts.

I keep going to him because I'd like to go to the Women's program in Batavia, NY. Eventually, I hope that harsh reality and then gentle healing will change the course of this PTSD that screws me and my life up.

As a vet with MST you have a right to a female counselor and I would get one if it were me. Doesn't sound like this guy is right for you. Tell them you feel you need the treatment program. Two of mine were too lazy to fill out the paperwork and the third was not and it helped tremendously. You have a right to the treatment but will unfortunately have to insist on it. Men were my perps and I could not see one as a therapist, PTSD or not.It's sad but no one can force us to face it and stop dissociating until we are ready but the inpatient progams help. Good luck and I hope I didn't offend you but this is what helped me. God Bless and thank you fo you service.

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Originally posted by 10198557:
Hi I'm a peacetime veteran and never dealt with my stressors in a positive way. High-strung is how I felt and thought it was 'my personality'.
I got into therapy at the local VA community clinic and see a male psychologist who says he has
PTSD himself. I'm super sensitive, but feel that I need a therapist who will cause me to face the
past and stop dissociating my memories. My therapist is not comforting or understanding.
He points out obvious stuff and it hurts.

I keep going to him because I'd like to go to the Women's program in Batavia, NY. Eventually, I hope that harsh reality and then gentle healing will change the course of this PTSD that screws me and my life up.

The best suggestion here is to get to a Vet Center for support.