Originally posted by Corky64:
I guess the Denver VA isn't caught up with outside knee replacements that last longer. I'm sure they have to keep costs low. They don't know that I will need another one. Hey when I broke my back (yes while in the service) they knew 10 to 20 years you will be in a wheelchair. Its been over 20 years now I may be limping but I'm still walking upright. I wasn't too young to have a total hip replacement in 2009. Because I needed it, VA wants vets to get tired and quit bothering them.....SSD denied twice, I have a brain, and a couple degrees to go with my brain. PTSD is not "really" considered debilitating unless you have gone to war and are missing a limb...So again I thank you for your response, but as you can see I have tried knocking on all of these doors since 2008 and it keeps getting slammed right back in my face. Thanks at this point I have stopped "using VA" medical. I just don't get any and deal with the cards God has given me.The lawyer seems to think I have a valid complaint to disagree with most recent decision. Shall see what happens, trying not to have stroke, heart attack, or kill myself falling because one of my knees gives out. Don't laugh I got a concussion last November for exactly that. All info is appreciated.
Sorry I didn't reply before now. I forgot to set notification for this thread.
You said... "I just don't get any and deal with the cards God has given me." My exact sentiments too. I'm pushing sixty years old and have been fighting this stuff and much more crap coming from the wood-work for twenty years. What may work for others doesn't work for me so it is all 'in the cards.' Yet people seem to think if they got something or managed to slide-by then all others must be treated the same way or attain what they did. Like my going to Vocational Rehab and seeing others going through the process and having computers given to them. They just told me I didn't qualify back then when I was trying college yet ALL others were getting them. Being a vet gave me points but apparently not the same points that females and minorities were entitled to. All I could get was my books paid for, period. There again I just stopped dealing with them while I hear about the changes made and all those others sliding by smoothly with plenty of support... and information that I learned later that wasn't even mentioned to me. Why I don't know. Having a Voc Rehab social worker that couldn't speak English very well sure didn't help matters. But being advised to re-train and the only way out was college I fell for it and again more things went wrong and left me heavily in debt for student loans. This is long after my GI bill expired of course that would have helped. I learned not to listen to some others... and their gospel, or expect to get what others can seemingly get with ease.
I am also single and out-lived my nuclear family and many friends, so being alone in all these struggles really suck and creates more problems. Making us sometimes lean on people for some help, to feed pets, only to have them take advantage of our situation and my coming home to find I had been burglarized, food gone, even fuses out of the old fuse box were stolen. Too much gossip about where a person is at and the home is easy prey. Murphy's Law. Then most people can't and won't try to understand the plight and situations of others. Too much BS and propaganda out there, and too many thinking they know what's best for us. That everything is a .. one size fits all in various situations and see things only from their perspectives or very shallow life experiences. Like my VA psychologist who thinks a person isn't supposed to complain, stand up for ourselves, to engage in any conflict, but just sit back at tolerate everything... oh... and smile. Even though we may be in situations to discover we/I have no rights or freedoms full circle.
So hopefully you can dig around on-line or locally and find some 'good' support and others who are in the same boat as you. In my vicinity making new friends to finding a supportive group has been impossible. Mainly because I simply cannot afford, or physically able, to go and do what others are doing.
Then dealing with the present health issues at that time, more surgeries, then more health problems falling from the sky didn't help matters. Then the college not working with me concerning my classes and my access to them back then. Like I was told my class rooms would be in buildings with elevators, not stairs, or on the ground floor. Wrong, the majority of them were in buildings that were not disabled compliant. Plus not being able to find close disabled parking then having ten minutes to get across campus, or town, for the other classes and so on and so forth. Anything that could go wrong did. My crack-head tutors I had to hire was another trip to deal with concerning the typical college party scene. And me being an "old stick in the mud" cause I stopped drinking twenty one years ago, and didn't drink then. So not cool. No staff or senior student volunteers led me around campus and helped like they did others or like they did with with older ladies or with someone related to someone teaching or working at the college. And I'm a damned nice, polite, mannerly guy too so I don't get it. Just in those damned cards I suppose. My life is ruled by "Murphy's Law." Being a male, an American, vet, gimped up, numerous health problems, caucasion, labeled an "old dawg" or "pops," labeled a "non-traditional older student," plus a "townie" sure didn't help matters all the way around and involving tons of issues. And some of my questions in dealing with some issues seemed to be very offensive to the politically correct crowd when I started noticing things and doing some comparisons about me and how others were being catered to and allowances made for them. Nothing like they show on TV about happy people smiling, having good tutors, the young students around them and happily helping and supporting them, and receiving all that love (lol) from students and staff. Just the opposite.
Fighting the above and having health problems that weren't diagnosed or cared much about yet compounded things. But no-one would listen to this un-educated idiot that was trying to get certain tests done but the experts thought it would be a waste of money and not necessary. Turned out I was right years later. So so much for my trust and belief in so-called professionals and others who think they know it all. Or tell me how simple things are. Like the new veterans Evet website that seemingly I'm the only one having trouble with it and getting messages about them having "techincal difficuties." Must be in my mind since I'm being treated for depression, and started speaking up instead of being a door-mat for all others. If something is wrong, or not functioning, it just is.. and not me or in my mind. But others have to put on a facade of everything being perfect and them putting up constant defenses for the slighest question or issue.
People also don't consider while we fight our health issues with all that encompases and can be hell on Earth to deal with, and trying to exist there are many many more problems and propaganda to deal with. There were jobs I could do, others with disabilites could do, and applied for many but was turned down for employment because of having..... "pre-existing conditions." No insurance coverage .. no employment and legal. So many times hearing about rights for the disabled is a bunch of hooey. City and county jobs that are well suited for the more elderly and disabled went to younger healthier people who had connections or related to government/political types (nepotism). Then us having to pay millionaire attorneys four hundred dollars for ten minutes of discusion to be told how screwed up and legal things are is another woe and adding insult to injury. (No, no free legal aid to be had here either. Not for me anyway.) Or to ask them about heat/utilities being shut-off in the winter months when I just left the hospital for home, but on TV the utilities are so kind that they can't do it and would not do such a thing. More hooey. Or to hear that doctors that messed you up got by with it due to "statute of limitation "laws. Or other MDs would not testify or try to help get the doctors to do the right thing and fix the problems due to... "professional courtesy." They won't confront the quacks. Or how they lied and fanagled me into signing a large chunk social security back pay away for the most part to doctors that wouldn't release my files or sign needed paperwork for my disability claims unless I signed a contract with them through a lovely law abiding attorney. To which I guess is another legal/illegal rip-off.
Of course while losing other houses, fighting city hall for grass cutting and other city ordinances, can't pay their fines or do what they think I can do at the time. The animal rights people slicing my tires and harassing because I raised my own meat animals like chickens and rabbits which are easily kept but I'm a murderer, un-American, and hater for eating meat.. a bunny killer. Then having to deal with them brings in other feminist groups and it all snow-balls from there. Can't even get a break from activist and special interest groups and people think its funny. Of course I'm the enemy for not being "politically correct" and not living up to the expectations of others. That includes them calling the fire department on me for cooking 'bunnies' and fried chicken over a campfire I have in the backyard of my last home since utiltities are shut off and I'm trying to live as a gimped up, broke, breaking, throw-back to primitive days..which I can do if need be. But today would probably die because of no electric power means no CPAP machine and croaking in my sleep. LOL
Can't forget about constantly being dragged into court harassed and threatened for non-payment on medical bills and etc. And damned on court days the stinking elevator always seemed to be broke down and had to worm my way up three long flights of stairs and down again, and then home to bed for two weeks or longer for doing that to only have to do it again. To see those smiling judges and attorneys. Not being able to afford doctors to pull fluid from my knees for doing stair-case acrobatics, and not wanting to go through the hassle and costs of the emergency room I go to the farm surplus store and buy a 24 gauge hog syringe (I think it was 24, been a while back) and pull fluid off of my knees. Hell seen it and had it done enough times, no problem. Or spending a weekend in jail for not being able to meet a court order to pay a huge amount that the bill collectors attorney set up. You don't go to jail for non-payment of 'medical bills'... but for "violation of court order." Semantics ya know. Then told that is supposed to be illegal and un-heard of.. but advised from that angle it is legal. Duh! More to that story but I have to cease. More money and billing to try to protect myself, to exist, from this predatory government, judicial system, health system, and society at large seemingly. Christ, I feel like I'm living in the old Soviet Union under a side-order of political correctness and expected to be totally silent about any wrongs or mis-treatment. I've exhausted all attempts and every avenue of talking to anyone over the years. We have little to no say in this un-caing throw-away society unless we are connected somehow or know somebody with insider info or willing to give us info. What freedom what rights?
Told we must be our own advocates then told to merely accept things, or expected not to be advocating for ourselves.
And God have mercy on the poor person who is forced while ill or staggering, limping around, to have to go out into public/modern society, the drug or grocery store, court house, to be hassled by cops or others who quickly think you're doped up or drunk or acting funny due to a drop in blood sugars, migraine attack, or something. Be tossed around by cops and hand-cuffed, never spologized to, but told later that "we aren't social workers ya know." Forced to our bad knees and cuffed "for all our safety." In the new America we can't even pull to the side of the road and puke or else we are a domestic terrorist or up to no-good. So the normal BS and "be tolerant" of others or to "not to write letters" or "create problems" 'just keep a smile on your face" crap from the local VA psychologist who must not have experienced much in life can be a bit hard to swallow or listen to. Or to hear that "others have never had to deal with any of these issues." So all of it must be my fault in my thinking to my voicing opinions of disaproval or opposition to how things are. To thier belief that one should never say a cross word about this government, so-called social services, or VA health care since they are so perfect and profesional and so so so caring. That their co-workers (and society) are just so great and marvelous that they'd never show attitude or dis-respect to anyone. Crazy. I sure didn't see my senior years like this or dealing with the multitude of issues and people I am today.